Change

Change is apparent. I feel like all these things are happening with my life and the people around me lives and that eventually it is all going to come to a point. I think it is getting darn close. God is working. Whether it be working out the filth in mine or others lives or defending us from the lies of the enemy. I know I have said this in the past but I feel it stronger now more then ever. I think because of it my perspective on some things has changed or is changing. I see things in a different light than I normally would. I am picking these things up one by one and I think God is trying to tell me something. But not all at once. More of like a sneak peak or a preview of whats to come and he is telling me I am just going to have to live out the rest of the movie. I feel indifferent about some things for I don’t know exactly what is good or bad. I have my ideas but my human mind is severely handicapped when it comes to the will of God. I guess I am Just cautiously anxious for it all to play out. Mystery can be vilifying but to me it feels a tad cruel. I think trust is in order. In some ways I want to let this feeling go with reckless abandon. But at the same time I don’t. I know I am probably sounding like a basket case. Guess thats what intense curiosity will do to you. I think the doctor ordered some sleep. I think its what this sick body needs. Maybe it will also take away some of these non stop thoughts. Here’s to hoping.